i am a fool trapped in a simple, escapable cave. i enjoy the comfort in darkness and do not wish to appear in the light. in light, flaws are visible and esteems are crushed like the orange used for its juice. however; if we are never crushed how are we to be made into something new? it’s almost inevitable to be broken down enough to pick and build yourself up into something different. 

darkness hides many things, including stained carpets and the clothes left on the floor. how are we so afraid of something that hides everything we hate? they say that when youre “in the dark” about something, you are ignorant. but is it better to be ignorant about the tragic realities of being human than know everything that could possibly go wrong? id prefer the in bewteen, but unfortunately ive been left in light. pulled out of my foolish state in the cave and forced to have seen everything, maybe not a first hand experience, but know. because just knowing can hurt people. 

humans are fragile and hard at the same time. we are entirely made up of mistakes and theres nothing we can do to avoid it. fuck plastic surgery, thats just building up the mistakes we’re making. 

mistake atop mistake atop mistake. its unavoidable. 

we are not a pencil and eraser, and even after erasing there are very small visible marks from either being lazy or just a shitty eraser. 

imagine what life would be like if we had an eraser for every mistake? 

well, there probably wouldnt be if you think about it. and hence, i would actually much rather stay in my easily escapable cave, hidden in the dark of ignorance. yet, i hate ignorance so why would i want to be the very thing i hate? do i even know what i want? 

does anyone know what they want anymore?