“Surrounded by the best, but something’s always just out of reach. Chase it. Run harder than you’ve ever run.”

i’m sorry to disappoint but i am going nowhere. my feet are chained and i would run if i could but it all seems like a wasted effort. 

and for once, my hero made me feel worse. because im still the flightless bird and all my other stupid analogies for my pathetic life. im going in circles, the same repeating pattern and i cant stop it. i dont really know if ive tried but it just seems so impossible especially right now. i am drowning in a depression and of course, others have it worse than me but i still have this sickness. this disease thats taking over my youth and wasting it away. 

ive lost complete control of my life to it. its a monster and its killing me.